I had no idea that they were carrying on behind my back. He never said or did anything to make me suspect him – and neither did she.
Yet I now know that they started their secret affair in 2015 and in April he will become a dad. She is so smug I could cry. She’s suddenly become all superior and wise.
She keeps telling me to get over myself. She preaches that “these things happen between consenting adults” and that I need to grow up.
But I’ve never felt more stupid or so low. The fact is that my boyfriend continued to have sex with me throughout the whole of their affair. He never missed a beat.
I can’t stop thinking that he probably came straight home and made love to me the day he made her pregnant.
And that makes me feel so dirty and used. I’m desperate for a child of my own, yet he says that won’t be possible now.
Humiliatingly, I only know the truth because two weeks ago a neighbour drew my attention to my mate’s bulging tummy.
She looked me in the eye and said: “You do know who the father is, don’t you?” And, with that one comment, my whole world fell apart. Now what do I do?
I love my house. It may only be rented, but I’m good at interior design and I’ve made it my own. How can I bear to lose my man, my life and my dream home all in one go?
When he and I first got to together he swore that he would never hurt me. He knew that I was vulnerable after my ex died of a drug overdose. I’m 25.
What is your advice?
Originally Shared by Jane O’Gorman on Just Jane